The first time I heard the term "Harm Reduction" was from a straight male meth dealer.
I was later in my active use when my mom brought me to West Virginia to get my life together.
This guy needed someone who could 'hit a vein,' and I needed free drugs. So, our relationship was transactional and...
There's something so exciting about the texting dance that occurs after you match with someone from a dating app (at least the ones who are able to carry on a conversation).
I guess you could say it's the modern version of "courtin'."
I used to love sharing and learning with new matches. At one ...
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I need you to know that there really is sex after meth.
Good sex.
Great sex.
And, better yet, there is looooove after meth.
But don't take my word for it!
In this episode, Dave Becker shares his journey of redis...
As a military brat, I grew up in trailer parks along the coast of North Carolina.
Instant neighborhood of other military brats.
A huge fenced-in playground was in the center of one of the parks. I remember playing there until the "street lights came on," the universal Gen X sign that it was ti...
What a miserable existence. Feeling unhappy and constantly triggered for your entire life.
That was my reality.
I can remember feeling sad as a boy into my early adulthood. I mean, the pictures prove it:
I always believed as soon as I had "that", life would feel happy. "That" was never eno...
What was the one thing that kept me actively using Meth?
Without a doubt, it was Fear Of Missing Out (FOMO).
The nuance that makes the Tina world different than other stubstances, is that we as gay men know that at ANYtime and ANYwhere there will be a chemsex parTy.
It is like a child who live...
Welcome to SEASON 2!
I'm launching this season with another solo pod. I hope you enjoy and I pray that you'll share it with anyone out there struggling with living meth-free.
The Meth-Free Blueprint: Seven Key Practices for the First 90 Days
1. Attend 90 12-step meetings in 90 days.
There i...
5:30am comes early when you are catching the public bus.
Homeless and on my way to the courthouse to pee in a cup, then to treatment.
Once settled in my seat, I would close my eyes and lean my head back.
This would be my hour of escape into the future while we made our way to the City of Charl...
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Understanding Shame and Sexual Identity
Dr. Davidson emphasizes that shame differs fundamentally from guilt.
While guilt relates to specific actions we regret, shame cuts deeper - it's the belief that we ourselves are inhere...
The most frequent question I'm asked through my DM's is: How did you do it?
How I broke free from daily IV use of crystal meth could be a layered and complicated answer. But it isn't.
I chose the path of least resistance. I set up my life so that there was no room for choice.
From the day I s...
"Anyone with six months clean?"
It was key tag time at the Narcotics Anonymous (NA) meeting.
I looked proudly at my royal blue prize and hugged a few necks.
Before I sat down, someone asked me to share what's been working for me.
I replied, "Psilocybin and Ayahuasca ceremonies have both changed t...
Noticing my hand visibly trembling, I gripped my pen and squeezed. I could feel my chest pounding, too. A bead of sweat plingo-ed down my spine.
Using my periphery, I strained to catch any sign that the person next to me at the boardroom table noticed my body language.
I adjusted my position in t...
