Reading a book with one eye on the Grindr grid. Stopping in the middle of cleaning my house to take the perfectly angled Snapchat. Broadcasting my hookups via my personal Zoom room. Before my active meth use, I couldn't stand to be alone for more than an hour. If I couldn't have physical compa...

Ben Kaye's story demonstrates that recovery isn't just about stopping substance use—it's about transforming your pain into purpose and your experience into expertise. As a therapist with lived experience in chemsex recovery, Ben has spent years building bridges between the underserved and the sy...

  It can feel maddening when you are trying to quit using meth.  Each day, each hour, each second feels like you are a different version of yourself. You don't want to use, you want to use, you hate meth, you will stop nothing until you have it.  You have a stellar day of feeling happy and accom...

  "Embodiment to me is deep listening to the signals that my body gives me around what's right and wrong for my life." - Gary Our bodies are always speaking to us. Tightness in the chest, upset stomach, swollen throat...  Anything we feel in the physical is a message from our spirit. But, most ...

The first time I heard the term "Harm Reduction" was from a straight male meth dealer. I was later in my active use when my mom brought me to West Virginia to get my life together. This guy needed someone who could 'hit a vein,' and I needed free drugs. So, our relationship was transactional and...