We often hear about people "trading one addiction for another" in early recovery.
I know for me I couldn't drink enough Red Bull in my transition away from methamphetamine.
But the most damaging trade-off is the addictions that are hidden.
In order to explore this concept, I'll present a 4-part series, "Breaking Free from the Approval Trap." This series will follow a client's journey, whom we will call Marcus. Maybe you'll see yourself in him.
Meet Marcus
Marcus sits in his BMW in the parking lot after work, hands gripping the steering wheel. He's been meth-free for eighteen months now ā€“ a milestone that should feel like victory.
But right now, all he can think about is how his presentation went flat in there. How his boss barely nodded. How the silence felt when he pitched his "innovative" marketing strategy.
The shame spiral is starting, that familiar tightness in his chest. And somewhere in the back of his mind, crystal meth whispers its seductive promise:
"Remember how confident you felt? How unstoppable? How everyone wanted you?"
"Doesn't this rejection feel so fucking uncomfortable and scary? Remember how that first puff took all of that away?"
Marcus knows this feeling intimately.
It's not just about the drug anymore ā€“ it's about this gnawing, desperate need for approval that seems to control every aspect of his recovery.
What most people don't comprehend is that approval addiction might be more dangerous to his sobriety than any physical craving.
The Hidden Prison
For decades before meth and years after, I lived in this unseen prison. I remember the rise and fall of my emotions based on the actions of everyone around me. It is smothering and a living hell.
